Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Guilty

Lets see, around the house...

I cook, I clean, I do the dishes, I do the laundry, I make sure that my daughter makes it to her bus stop on time. I do the budget, I pay the bills, I have full control over our financial situation, even though I try to include her in it all the time. I take care of the dogs, I feed the fish. At least since it is fall I do not have a lot of yard work to do.

We both work full-time and of course she is bi-polar but the only thing that she has to do is the grocery shopping... which of course I did this weekend too.

She does do things, like decorate for holidays, and she is good with our daughter... but for the most part I pretty much do everything.

It was not always like that, we had an equal share, and I know a lot of it is her illness. So I put up with it.

Honestly I don't mind doing all of these things. I now have a routine that works and I do not feel at all overwhelmed, but sometimes...

Like this weekend, I took a break from my duties and played a video game... for most of the weekend. I still did a lot of the work around the house, but some things were left undone... and I briefly felt guilty about it... but I am happy that I did it.

I am now caught up with all the housework and back to my regular routine.

It was definitely a much needed break, especially for my sanity.

3 comments:

  1. Good for you! I think you need to do that more often. If you don't take care of yourself, you can't take care of anyone else. Be good to you.

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  2. I understand. I do just about all of those things myself as well. My wife is not bi-polar, but she does tell me quite often how she does everything around the house and never gets any help. Then when I take a break it just gets worse, but you have to sometimes.

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  3. I have so missed you. Glad to see your back. I wish the reason you were away was cause of some amazing vacation you were on.

    Hang in there. : )

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