Thursday, May 29, 2014

Tornado

The tornado sirens went off this weekend, as they went off we all went outside to see the funnel cloud forming.  There was no danger ultimately but we all wanted to see it first hand.  Probably not the smartest thing but that is what we do sometimes, we like to watch the train wreck as it happens.

Anyway, that was real, this is more metaphorical. 

My life has been a whirlwind recently.

As I probably already mentioned work has been nothing less than stressful.  I barely have enough time to compete the tasks before something else comes up and I have to work on that for a while.  I have not had a break mentally in quite some time.

It is not just that either.  Each week a new problem has presented itself.  Something I have never done before or an issue that I have never faced.  None of it is really bad, just unexpected.  This is for my life and my job.

I have approached each task in the same manner, thinking it will be over before I know it and then I can call it an accomplishment.

Things are basically happen so fast, maybe even too fast for me to respond.  I think that is good and bad.  The ride has to stop at some point but who knows when and where.

I think a lot hinges on the fact that my work is so busy that things I used to take care of during the day I have no time to do.  And home life is always busy so if I try to do it at home then it never gets done, so I have to cram it in at the moment that it comes along. 

I feel like a video game where things come at you and you have to react by either smashing whatever it is, grabbing it, or jumping over it.  The decision is instantaneous and hopefully you make the right one otherwise you lose.  Well so far I am winning and each level is getting more difficult.

I wonder if this is what life is like at 40 and everyone faces it and that is why some people have mid-life crises.

Don't get me wrong I am loving every minute of my life right now and I still find time to do things that I enjoy, but that is just it.  I am fitting in all these activities around all the others and for now I am getting away with it, but again who knows how long that will last.

Maybe I am just jaded because I have had things come crashing down before and maybe I should just enjoy the ride and not think about what could happen.

But there is something in the back of my mind that thinks if the tornado does hit how many pieces will I have to pick up?

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    1. The funny thing is that I am not all that anxious about things. I am not sure if that will change, but I keep running at full speed and things keep working out for me, so I do not stress much.

      I have been trying to meditate once in a while to calm my nerves when something puts me out of place but for the most part things are falling into place perfectly.

      As I mentioned maybe its the past that I tend to think about when things went really wrong and I am expecting that to happen, but things are going well so far.

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