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Expect the Worst

So I am a glass half full type of guy, at least for most things.  I tend to try to see the good in things and people and give them the benefit of the doubt.

Over the years I have had some extremely tough situations to deal with and have always seem to come out better in the long run.  Although a few were set backs that have taken years to overcome.

Now I am about to change jobs again, after 10 years of being in the same company.  I am completely looking forward to the new job the new change and all the things that come with it.  It is better pay, better benefits, a bit of a longer commute but still easy, and the most important thing, unless I am grossly negligent it is a very secure job.

The industry I am in now is extremely volatile, companies are in the midst of layoffs or cutting hours and contracts are few and far between.  So job security is extremely important to me now especially as I look towards the future where I have braces, a home purchase and ultimately college to look forward to.

So when something disrupts the norm I start to get extremely worried and draw the worst conclusions.  Like the last few days I have been having issues with my truck.  It is 11 years old but only has 121k miles, so it still has been running great.  But when things start going bad I expect the worst and essentially hope for the best.

This morning I was looking up all the things that could be the problem and came to the conclusion of a blown head gasket... now that in itself is not a terrible issue, other than it costs a lot to replace.  But I started thinking, what if there is something major with the engine, all the nice extra income will be wiped out with a new car payment.

The same thing happened with my boss.  When I was giving my two weeks notice, I became really worried that he was going to fire me on the spot.  Which would not have been a terrible thing but still would have screwed me out of my last paycheck which should be about $1700.  So I started freaking out and saying that if that happened I would call the corporate office and really let them have it.

Of course in both situations things did not happen as I expected.  My boss was happy for me and even said that he would talk with corporate and see if they could offer me more money.

And my truck, although I am not 100% certain, but it seems to be more of a faulty radiator cap, a $4 fix.

Why do I always expect the worst?  Maybe because I can prepare myself for those things and then be happy when they do not happen.  Or maybe I just have a worried side to me.  I was the type of kid that would throw up before his tests, that could not eat anything before giving a speech or anything that would make me nervous.

One thing is for certain, there is a lot of change in my household right now and everything seems to be pointing towards good things, but I still worry.

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  1. I know what you mean. I feel the same way. It's like you want to protect yourself from disappointment.

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