Blue Eyed Bader

My job is going good, although the company needs to rethink some of their policies. Of course I think I would be hard pressed to think of any other company that does not have similar issues. Normally I am an office worker, but with some budget cuts and some time delays several projects are now overlapping and I am going to be out in the field. I prefer a combination of both field and office but I usually only travel several weeks out of the year. The field work is great, does not require a lot of thought other than the initial equipment test in the morning, and gets me outside for the better part of the day. The problem mostly is the hotel stay. The first few days are great but I tend to miss my family. If we are out in the field for an extended period of time I spend a lot of time in my hotel room. And if said hotel room is not that comfortable I tend to get restless and cant wait to get home. Occasionally we have stayed in some nice places, but typically it is the cheapeast w

I woke up screaming last night. The darkness was taking over my body in a dream and I was trying to push it away. The shadows surrounded me in a black haze and I screamed into my nightmare. When I finally opened my eyes I was staring at the ceiling in my living room having fell asleep on the couch earlier in the evening. The darkness was still there in the shadows as I tried to go back asleep. My heart kept pounding in my chest as my eyes closed once again on the room. The shadows reappeared and I screamed back at them to force them from my mind. I am not sure anyone else in the apartment heard me, at least from this morning no one has said a word yet. Hopefully my screams were only in my nightmare. I have been stressed lately, not really myself. Concerned with a lot of my life and the decisions I have made over the past. These thoughts haunt me from time to time. I try to tell myself that I have no regrets and that I continue to look forward and not behind me, but at tim

Three a.m. this morning the neighbors down stairs started to arrive home. Not sure where they came from but they were loud and obviously impaired on something. I woke up and could hear them through the open window. The conversation at one point was talking about driving while tripping. While driving under the influence of alcohol is bad, I could not imagine being able to drive while hallucinating. I could smell the marijuana smoke come up through my window, something that I was not too happy to have with a 10 year old daughter asking me all types of questions. Eventually they went to sleep and after a bit I did as well. The next morning as I was living to go to take my daughter to school and myself to work I ran into one of the girls that I see there often. I am not sure if she lives there with the others or just visits from time to time. She was in the hallway towards the front of the apartment building trying her hardest to open the door of one of the apartments. One that d

My daughter spent the night at a friends house. The last time this happened I posted about it. My wife decided to take sex completely off the table before we even went to bed. That led to a discussion on how to fix this situation and we both decided it would take some work. This time however it was not completely off the table. There was no discussion before bed and since it was my wife's birthday the other day and we had a great week I thought this would be a good time to try. My wife's one rule though, mostly because she is on some medications that put her right to sleep, is that we have sex in the morning. Morning sex is fine with me... well any sex is fine with me. So this past Saturday I woke up a little earlier and started running my hands up and down her back. I spent quite a while doing this until I worked up the nerve to move down. Well maybe when I have more time I will go into the details, but there really is not much to tell. It was a quick one, sin