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Easing back into it.

So after the long hiatus I have to ease back into this writing thing. I find that I have so many ideas but not really one in particular that I am wanting to write about.

If only I could free form something that was interesting and not merely a ramble I would be happy.

Anyway, to catch everyone up to speed in my life, I started a new phase of my career. I am now working from home until things change a bit and I plan to move out west again. I miss the mountains and the snow and am not happy about the heat where I live now.

Financially it is going to be tough but I dont think I have much of choice with my job. I do think they will pay for the move but it has not come up yet.

I am traveling more, which is nice but it is hard to be away from home. I think it is helping our relationship with me being away since we seem to be drawn closer together. The only thing lacking in our relationship right now is sex.

My wife has gained quite a bit of weight because of various medications and other things. I do not mind the extra weight, I think she looks good no matter what (I know the right thing to say) but it has made her much more self conscious then she already ways. So sex is mostly out even though I tell her that I love her body.

Her doctor has been telling her that she needs to loose weight for health reasons so I have been trying to support her. I have offered my help since I have lost a bunch of weight myself but she and I both agree she has to do it on her own, with my support of course.

At the very least we have both agreed that we should put the whole house on a diet, we shall see how that works.

Maybe if she starts to loose weight we will start to have more sex. I have already tried the sex is exercise method and that did not work... She has taken the first step and is planning on accepting my advice on what to eat.

Well so far that is all, I have a lot of other things to talk about but like I said I will try to write a post a night while I am away.


  1. You are perfect the way you are.
    I'm here for you. If you need me.


  2. I am so sorry for what you are going through BEB. I have to tell you though that I know how you feel and go through the same thing with my husband. We have a whole role reversal thing going on here where I am the one who wants sex more. We have the weight thing going on too. Hang in there and good luck with your life changes.


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