Just over a month ago I was feeling extremely depressed. Things at home were going pretty poorly as my wife seemed to be heading for some major depressive episode, my job was busy but finances were still strained and my daughter was having a hard time adjusting to the new place.
Well, things have changed quite drastically from that point, and mostly for the good.
My wife is now working two jobs although they are both part-time. She seems much happier aside from the occasional stress from working two jobs and my daughter has a good amount of friends that we barely see her during the day.
I spent last week on a job that took me into the heart of the Rockies and I was loving every minute of it.
So needless to say things are almost back to normal for the most part and my depression is now in check.
Honestly, I think the shift in my wife's medication changed her mood quite a bit for the better and her leaving her last job helped as well.
We had morning sex a few weeks ago as I mentioned in a previous post, but it is still not on a regular basis and all very vanilla.
I find myself staring at my wife at times. She seems to be getting more beautiful as she gets older. I was in my daughters room the other day and saw a picture from when my wife worked for a park in NYC, and thought of how beautiful she looked.
It was a picture of her and her friend from a newspaper article about two blonds from California working at a park in Staten Island. Yes she basically was being interviewed because she was this beautiful blond in a very unlikely place.
There is this newscaster on the local news channel that I think is gorgeous, of course she is 24 with blond hair and blue eyes, recently I have found myself thinking, my wife looked better at 24 then she does, so she will not look any better than my wife does at 39.
If only our intimacy was where I want it to be, our lives would be perfect now.
Of course financially we are still struggling a bit, but that seems to be the norm these days. At least we pretty much have everything that we need right now and that is saying a lot.
Consider that your wife is just tired and needs time to adapt. That you find her beautiful tells me you are romantic. I hope you tell her she is beautiful. Try holding her or kissing her just for that purpose alone. Do not do this with the intention of having sex. You just might see a change in her. Give her time. Also realize that certain meds decrease one's sex drive.
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