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Another Transformation

With the pandemic forcing me to be home these last few months I have been working on a fairly consistent basis. I am happy with my progress and it has been fun as I approach 50 to feel like I have done quite a bit for myself.
I also went vegan recently and that has been the best decision of my life. 

My cardiologist told me that I really did not have to see him anymore as all my tests were completely normal. 

This has been an incredible time, both good and bad. But you can never stop trying to become a better person. 

I feel great, I look great, and I am happy... for the most part.



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