Blue Eyed Bader

The tornado sirens went off this weekend, as they went off we all went outside to see the funnel cloud forming.  There was no danger ultimately but we all wanted to see it first hand.  Probably not the smartest thing but that is what we do sometimes, we like to watch the train wreck as it happens. Anyway, that was real, this is more metaphorical.  My life has been a whirlwind recently. As I probably already mentioned work has been nothing less than stressful.  I barely have enough time to compete the tasks before something else comes up and I have to work on that for a while.  I have not had a break mentally in quite some time. It is not just that either.  Each week a new problem has presented itself.  Something I have never done before or an issue that I have never faced.  None of it is really bad, just unexpected.  This is for my life and my job. I have approached each task in the same manner, thinking it will be over before I kno...

As a person open to different types of relationships and sexual activities I am pretty liberal when it comes to a person's choice for their body. But really what is with all the tattoos and body piercings these days.  Going downtown recently I realized that being the one person without a tattoo or body piercing I was the one who was not normal. I don't mind a few tattoos, in fact I like seeing a girl with nice tats but when your entire arm is covered and some look like prison ink I think that is too much. Sitting by the pool yesterday I saw some tats I really liked and some women that I could not even figure out what they were trying to say with all the ink. I know its a personal choice and I think that you are trying to express yourself but there seems to be a lot of bad ink. Also, tongue piercings, ears, belly button, clitoral, nipples even the eyebrow piercings I can live with, but when you have a hole in your ear or if you have a hoop in your nose I can not sit ...

So my daughter is away on a school trip, leaving us with lots of alone time.  I know that typically during this type of situation my wife seems to create all kinds of barriers between us so that I do not anticipate that being alone with her means I will have sex. Knowing the situation before hand I usually try to tread carefully, although recently my wife went off of her birth control.  I realize that if you have been reading my blog that you would wonder why she even needs birth control since we rarely have sex.  Well it helps to control her emotions.  We realized at some point that if she has her period she becomes more depressed. Anyway, she recently switched doctors and the new doc has not done anything about her birth control yet so she waited too long to receive her shot and now has to wait even longer so she can get a period. Well that being said we have been discussing the birth control issue and along with that the sex. So when my daughter left for...

I sent a picture to a lady friend a few months back and when going through my old email with her I found the picture. Of course it was a picture of me lying in bed with my hand on my cock.  It is not a very flattering picture since I was not fully erect so it does not show my full size. Not that I am that big anyone, I have a somewhat average size penis in length and am a bit thicker than average. I was thinking of posting it anonymously on a site that shows cocks, but was unsure of what type of response I would receive.  Not that I am self conscious about it but I have heard some of my fellow bloggers talk about cock pics they receive from time to time and they are amazed at how big some of them are. Of course the opposite is true as well.  I have an addiction to amateur porn, and I can safely say that I am bigger than most of the guys that I see on those sites.  There are sometimes exceptions to that rule and those videos are interesting to say the least, b...

Over the last few years, I have worked hard to make myself a better person. I work out quite often.  I read lots of books and magazines.  I spend more time with my daughter and try to give my wife the attention that she deserves. I have been working harder at my job.  Been trying to save some money for that rainy day and spending more time doing the things that I enjoy. I would say life is going really well for me right now, and from the outside looking in you would probably say the same thing. We bought a new car, have been traveling a bit more, and spending more time outside the apartment. On the inside though I have been depressed and angry lately. I snap quickly at small things at home.  I get anxious when the apartment is a little out of place.  I snap at my dogs when they do not understand what I am trying to make them do and overall I am a feeling very emotional. In these times I tend to surf the internet more.  I look for things that I ...

I typically take the back way to work.  One that takes me past the open space that begins in the foothills.  It is a beautiful drive without much traffic at all. One part of the drive takes me past the parking lot that leads to the hiking trails along the side of the hills.  It is a fairly well used area and usually has quite a few cars parked there.  Although in the morning there are only a few. This morning I thought about an arrangement to meet there.  Maybe the beginning of a relationship, a rendezvous spot.  The lovers could drive their respective cars on the way to work in the morning and pull up along side. One would get out and enter the others and they would play. I wondered how many times that has happened at this particular area.  It is not all that remote but enough that you would not be noticed.  You would have to leave the parking lot in order to have real fun, but there are so many choices from there that it would be eas...

I did not see the episode of Louie that a lot of people have been talking about lately but I have heard a lot about it. It was the one where Louie is asked out by a larger girl and she has a speech about why people do not date fat girls. Here is an excerpt from the speech if you have not seen the episode: Tell anyone how bad it sucks because it’s too much for people. I mean, you? You can talk into the microphone and say you can’t get a date, you’re overweight. And it’s adorable. But if I say it, they call the suicide hotline on me. I mean, can I just say it? I’m fat. It sucks to be a fat girl. Can people just let me say it? It sucks. It really sucks. And I’m going to go ahead and say it. It’s your fault. Look – I really like you. You’re truly a good guy, I think — so, sorry. I’m picking you. On behalf of all the fat girls, I’m making you represent all the guys. Why do you hate us so much? What is it about the basics of human happiness – you know, feeling attractive, feeling ...

It has been a while since I have had sex.  And I know I have alluded to it before but for some reason when I go a bit without release I tend to watch quite a bit of porn and sometimes stray to the gay side of things. For some reason I like to watch anal penetration, the videos I seem to focus on are the ones that show the cock sliding in the ass and hopefully see the expression on the guys face.  I only watch the amateur videos, the more professional one's do nothing for me. I also get turned on hearing stories of first time with another man.  My release is usually a lot larger when I am reading these types of stories or viewing these types of videos. I have often thought about trying it out.  I think that I could possibly be bisexual or at least curious but I have never had the nerve to do it. I also like to watch some of the pegging videos, especially where the women is fucking the man missionary and you can see the pain and pleasure in the guys face. ...