Blue Eyed Bader

Well not technically but its almost the end of the evening and I did not get a chance to post another HNT picture. I am pretty much on vacation but I thought I would be able to catch up on my posting and other things. So far its been a little slow. We some how picked up three stray dogs in the past two days and now we are trying to figure out what to do with them. The first one is a stray that seems to have been abused, it will not even come near me. The other two are maybe five weeks old, and of course as cute as can be. The only problem is that we really do not have the money to add three more dogs to our family since we already have two and one has addison's disease which requires daily medications and a monthly shot which gets quite expensive. I will fill you in on the happenings with the dogs later, and maybe I will have time to do a HNT picture.

Recently I was moving some old emails around and I came across one from a very good friend. I read the email again and one thing struck me with an incredible sadness. It was a statement that he made because he was dealing with what he thought at the time was Bell's Palsy. The statement was: "but whatever, it reminds you that other people deal with much tougher issues than this." What makes this statement so profound and filled with sadness is that he died three months later of a brain tumor. The tumor was obviously to blame for the paralysis in his face, but he was not aware until a few months later. When he was finally diagnosed with a stage IV tumor it was already too late and he died less than a month later. I have every bit of confidence when I say had he known what he was actually facing when he sent the email he would have still made that statement. He was that type of person. Even in the midst of his hospital stay he still had his humility and his sense of ...

Wish I could say that I was bruised because of some rough sex, but alas it was not that case. I decided to play goal during last week's lacrosse game that I usually coach. I had a great time but caught a ball in the inner thigh. It did not hurt all that much when it happened and bruised quite a lot over the next week. This is actually almost two weeks later. It was a lot worse a few days ago. I know this is not the sexiest picture around but I wanted to share a little more of my life with you. HAPPY HNT!

To all the men and women who serve or have served in the military, I want to wish you a Happy Veteran's Day. Thank you for all that you do and your service to our wonderful country. Without your service we would not have the freedoms that we have today. HAPPY VETERAN'S DAY! and Happy Marine Corps Birthday , although I am a day late!

Well its that time of year again. Time to go to an oyster roast. The weather is turning cooler, and I say cooler while most of the people that live down here will say cold because I lived in the northern states as well as the western mountain states and seen much colder temperatures then 35 at night. Dont get me wrong, 35 is pretty cold, but when I have been camping in -5 this will be a perfect evening in front of a fire eating oysters. Since we have lived here we have been somewhat adopted by this family that invites us to all of these occasions. Fourth of July, graduation parties, the family beach house, and now the oyster roast. The family is an amazing group of people and we are happy to be a part of their group. So I hope that everyone is going to have a happy evening, because I know my evening is going to be a good one. Maybe I will post some pictures tomorrow of my evening, no it will not be half naked shots, but most will probably be dressed for winter.

I am a little behind in my posting. I promise to be better about it from here on out. I already have many many posts that are in draft form that are ready to go so it will not take much to post them. So here is my proclamation! I will post on a regular basis from here on out... and promise not to take an extended absence unless something comes up! Really nothing has come up lately. I am just a little behind. So Happy HNT! Have a great day.

Lets see, around the house... I cook, I clean, I do the dishes, I do the laundry, I make sure that my daughter makes it to her bus stop on time. I do the budget, I pay the bills, I have full control over our financial situation, even though I try to include her in it all the time. I take care of the dogs, I feed the fish. At least since it is fall I do not have a lot of yard work to do. We both work full-time and of course she is bi-polar but the only thing that she has to do is the grocery shopping... which of course I did this weekend too. She does do things, like decorate for holidays, and she is good with our daughter... but for the most part I pretty much do everything. It was not always like that, we had an equal share, and I know a lot of it is her illness. So I put up with it. Honestly I don't mind doing all of these things. I now have a routine that works and I do not feel at all overwhelmed, but sometimes... Like this weekend, I took a break from my duties and...

Seems like I have been finding a lot of excuses not to post lately. Been really tired. Have not been motivated. Busy at work. Busy at home. No access to blogger... But really I do not have any excuse not to post. I want to post, its not that. There really is not a lack of motivation. Honestly I really can not tell you why. I just have not been posting. I have a lot to say. I have written several draft posts and maybe I should just post them. I have some great ideas for upcoming posts. I have finished my Vermont story but still left it in draft. So anyway, here is to the start of my next wave of posts. I will start it by posting a HNT shot. Of course you will have to wait a few hours or maybe till tomorrow to see it. I have already taken the picture, but I am going to stagger my posts so that I can finish some of the other drafts and edit some of the posts. Anyway... hope you all like the picture.

  Well I know I posted a shot like this in the past, but this is one that I took last week. With being sick over the last 24 hours I did not feel like taking a picture last night. Of course this one is a little more revealing then the one I posted earlier and it is a new shot, but maybe a little more of the same. I have a great idea for a shot that I wanted to do last night but it may have to wait until I feel a little better. Anyway, happy HNT!

Just when I thought things were getting back to normal and I was going to be able to post on a daily basis I get sick. It is pretty much the way things happen. Of course I believe that it was probably the stress over the last few weeks that helped fuel the illness, but today I feel a bit better but still under the weather. This weekend was great though. We had a busy one, a high profile breakfast with some dignitaries. A work party that was lots of fun and we met some great people, and to top it all off we bought a car. I know most of you do not know my back story but because of some financial issues we only had my truck and the motorcycle between my wife and I. Living in the south we made it work because the winter does not get that cold, but after the fiasco with my motorcycle and realizing that the truck was getting older, we decided to take the insurance money and buy a car. We only went to look but like always Saturday night ended with us driving off the lot in a new (used) ...

Still losing weight. I am happy where I am now and finally had a chance to check my body fat. Right now it is at 14 percent, so I know I can get it lower. But how low do I really want to go. I was 12 when I was playing sports in college, so maybe a few more percent. I have to run the half marathon in January so my goal is to keep running until then and then gain back muscle mass... we shall see what happens. Happy HNT!

The past two weeks have been a blur. Work always is a little rough at the fiscal year end but this year was a bit strange because we were in the process of essentially changing companies. In addition we were also trying to renegotiate our contract with the current company and running into road blocks with the new company so needless to say I had a lot going on. While waiting for the negotiations to finally end we had some time to do some necessary training, and that is what led to my earlier post about my motorcycle being run over and things being a little crazy. Feeling stressed I also overreacted when my wife left the hose on in the front yard and thought we had a water leak... of course I did not really know until I dug up the yard a bit, destroying some of the shrubbery in the process. I still have yet to hear on my motorcycle, but I know it will work out in some way, so I am not too concerned with it. And I am finally back to work in my normal situation with my normal routin...

As the title says... I am way to busy this week to do anything other then post this message. I am planning on writing and publishing several posts over this weekend so I may post a HN shot at some point, just not tomorrow. I know I will disappoint some of you but I promise to make it up to everyone with a spectacular HN picture over the weekend. Also you may have noticed a drop in posts, it is only because I have been in training for the past week and have not had a chance to even do so much as check my email every night. I have had about an hour of computer time in the last few days. Again I promise to make it all up to you over the next few days. A HN shot, a sexy story, and some stories about my life. I promise...

Today I started a class that I needed to take for my job. We have been trying to get this class for the past few years and the company has not found the time to let us take it because the job that I am working has not specifically required it, but it would be much better if we had it. So we had the perfect time, between contracts, where we could get the training in. I found a local class so there would be no traveling, and was excited to take it. I figured on leaving early, getting to the campus to find a good parking space since I was riding my motorcycle and finding the building. Everything was going well, until campus security showed up about half way through the day to tell me that someone had ran into my bike and it was now lying on its side in the parking lot where it leaked all the fluids from the engine. They actually tracked me down through my license plate and witnesses saw the person that did it so I went out to talk to them. Of course the person was claiming their gir...

The rain has been falling for the last few days here. We needed it so I am not complaining. It has made the weekend plans a little harder but I think we will find something fun to do. I am still working on getting used to the camera and lack of flash, so the picture seems a little grainy but I thought it went well with the dark rainy weather we are having. Happy HNT! As always check out Osbasso for who else is playing!

Growing up as the youngest of four brothers was not the easiest thing to survive. Of course somethings were easier because I got away with a lot of things since my parents went through it all with my other brothers, but I also had to compete with them for almost everything. I received a lot of hand me downs on many things, but on somethings by the time it reached me it was already worn out or broken. So many times I ended up with something new. The one thing that was always tough for me was being shy. My next older brother was king, the social butterfly, the guy that everyone liked to be around. He may not have been the smartest in the family or the most athletic but he always had the prettiest girls falling all over him and a truckload of friends that would call him on the weekend. Me, I was the quiet one, the smart one that kept to myself most of the time. I was also the athlete of the family, played three sports, skied, surfed and an outdoorsman. But for some reason I was shy ...

In 1960 jazz artist John Coltrane decided to take three giant steps. He quit drinking, he quit drugs namely heroine and became religious. He locked himself in a room for several weeks and quit everything cold turkey. After that he focused on his family, his music, and his daughter. We all take steps in our lives at some point. Taking a chance at a job that brings us across the country, choosing the person to hopefully try to spend the rest of our life with. Bringing a new life into this world. Many of these are giant steps. That is how we define our lives. These steps for Coltrane inspired the rest of his music, one of the greatest jazz albums ever produced was recorded after those steps named aptly enough "Giant Steps.'  This was my first introduction to Coltrane from a friend who sadly passed away this year. A friend who was not even 40. So this summer I took some giant steps of my own. While my wife and daughter were visiting family in California I changed my diet, ch...

A friend asked for a chest shot, so I had to accommodate. I want to get a little more artistic with my shots but self-shots are not always easy to do that with. So for now I will have to settle with these types of poses. Anyway, enjoy, and Happy Half-Nekkid Thursday! By the way, what the hell happened to Osbasso?

Well the week is almost half over and what a week it has been already and will be over the next few days. We are in the end of our fiscal year, and are also going through a merger that becomes official October 1st. Do I need to say that my job is stressful right now, didn't think so. Not only have I been assigned an incredible amount of projects to do in the next week, but I also have to complete the transition of the data to the new formats. Of course during all of this I have to go to the dentist, today, in about an hour. I thought about changing my appointment since this week is bad, but then I decided its my health. I don't mind going to the dentist, its not my favorite thing. But it is something that I am doing for myself, to keep me healthy, and this is the time that I have to be healthy. My work will wait for me, and the people that are screaming because they realized that the project they have been sitting on for the past four months is due at the end of next we...

I debated a long time before I posted that last piece. It was and has been a very difficult point in my life, and I wanted to keep some of the blog more upbeat. Although these incidents define my life and relationship over the past six years. Things have gotten better. She was hospitalized one or two times a year for the first three years when we moved here, ending completely in 2007. There was one more incident in 2008 that she should have gone and that I was stupid for not bringing her and thankful that it did not turn out any worse. My daughter remembers some of those times, like spending Mothers Day in the common area of the mental health facility. She also understands she is sick, but still makes the comments like 'Why does mommy sleep all the time." Or "Mommy is always angry." I would be foolish to say that this has not affected our relationship. I would like to say that we are stronger, but I have yet to open my heart back up to her as I did in the past ...

The room was completely silent aside from her breathing. I was awake slightly trying to get back to sleep. Apparently something woke me up at this hour, because I was extremely tired from the weekend. Her breathing seemed odd, almost labored, and I could hear a moan every now and again. Despite her sleeping habits, talking, moaning, breathing heavy, this seemed different. I reached over and touched her shoulder, wondering if it was just me or should I try to wake her. When I heard another moan I gave her a quick shake to see if everything was ok. She stirred slightly but did not waken completely. I shook her again, and again she did not respond very well. At this point I knew something was wrong and I got up and turned on the light. I called her name slightly louder at this point and got back on the bed to shake her awake. She opened her eyes and looked up at me and looking at her eyes I could see the emptiness. Fearing the worst, that she decided to finish off her medications ...

I know what you are saying, three picture posts in a row, did I run out of things to say. Definitely not, I have more stories than I know what to do with, but I the last few days have been fun for me on the camera front. I took a few good pictures of me and one that I thought I would share with you all. Beryl over at Phoenix Rising suggested that I make it a caption contest with an award and all, so I may do that for the next picture post. For now though I just want you to come up with a good caption. So here is the picture: A toilet, big screen TV, and an old screen door. This was taken down the street from my house. Here I will start, my caption originally was... Mantrash Then I thought,   Marriage, The Ultimate Sacrifice My neighbor came up with, Redneck Garage Sale So what can you come up with?

This is my running outfit, and my wife thinks that I look like one of those San Francisco bike messengers... She told me this the first day that I wore the shirt in the picture above. So I asked her you mean the gay ones? Because most of those guys look pretty good, so I took it as a compliment. If you know my wife, you would probably understand that this was definitely not a compliment... but oh well, you take what you can get sometimes. What do you all think?

Getting a little more risque, we shall see how far I go with it I guess. Dont think I will really show much more but hey there is always room for growth, ha! Happy HNT!

Last of a three part series... read Part I here and Part II  here ... I felt the first tear fall down my face before I realized what she was saying. How could she say that after all that has happened? I sat quietly and heard her ask. “Did you hear me?” Again my voice broke when I replied, “yes.” I stared at the darkness in my room and thought about what to say but nothing came. I managed to say wow, but wished I could say more. We talked some more that night but I am not sure I heard anything after that, and have no idea what I told her. Over the next month we talked daily, once again our conversations were superficial, although we decided that we needed to see each other. Thinking back, I believe we both felt that the connection was still there and we needed to test the waters. Although I had no idea if it was the right thing to do, giving our past. The plan was made, a weekend camping trip to Vermont. Nothing was promised and nothing was expected, just some time to ge...

Continuation of Part I . Please start there if you have not already. My brother told me there was a message on the machine but when I went to check it, he had already erased it. He was protecting me. He had been there when I walked back in the house wet from the rain, with a broken heart. He had picked up the pieces that I left there by the door that day and helped me rebuild. I knew I should not care that she called. I had not spoken to her since that night. I did not want to know how her new life was. I did not care if she wondered how I was, the pain was too great. But I was drawn to the machine. I looked at the tape and thought maybe it had not been erased, although I did not have a way to play it back. So I went out the next day and bought a mini tape recorder. When I heard her voice I could tell there was a sorrow to it. She said it took her a long time to call and she wanted to see how I was doing. I could sense she was trying to be upbeat but realized that behind the smile s...

This is going to be a three part post, since when I started it I thought it would be shorter but evolved into almost 4 pages... and I know my attention span is not all that long so I thought it was easier to split up... The butterflies had returned. The anticipation was completely destroying me from within. It had been almost eight months since I had seen her last and I had no idea what I would say, what I would do or even how I would ultimately feel. My heart had been broken. It was left on the rain soaked road behind the dunes where she had spoken those words. I went back to that day in my mind many times. “We have to talk,” the words were spoken quietly but I knew what they meant. My heart was already sinking, I had waited for this day the entire summer, waited for us to finally be together and hearing those words already hurt. We took a drive out to the beach to talk. The rain was cascading down on the windshield as I stared into the darkness waiting for her to tell me what w...

Today was my long run day in my training for the half marathon. The first of many longer days and the first time that I ran more than 5 miles in many many years. I felt great yesterday when I ran the 3.5 miles and actually thought I could do more, so when the training called for me to run/walk 7 miles today I thought maybe I can do the whole 7 miles without stopping just at a slower pace. Well I started out great, running about a 9 minute mile, which I thought was good for that distance. I did try to put my cell in my pocket thinking if I actually cramped up and lay dying on the trail that I could call someone to at least cart me off somewhere. When I put my phone in my pocket I noticed that the phone was slowly pulling my shorts down. These shorts lost the drawstring waistband a few months back, not sure what happened. So I decided to carry my phone so I would not have to worry about flashing the other people on the trail. Off I went, 3.5 miles into it, sweating like crazy now...

Her: Why is the camera in the bathroom? Me: Because I was taking the before pictures for before and after weights for my training. What should have been said... Her: Why is the camera in the bathroom? Me: Because I was taking pictures of my penis to share online...

To the women with the Donate Life license plate who blew through the school zone at 55 mph, maybe you need to reevaluate your license plate choice. To the Jackass with the Start Seeing Motorcycles bumper sticker who pulled out in front of me while I was on my bike... please heed your own advice. To the lady with the Got Jesus sticker in her window who flipped me off because I would not let two cars merge in front of me, I think you need to keep reading your bible, maybe someday you will understand what it says. And lastly to the young girl putting on makeup, while eating breakfast and talking on the phone on the way to high school, if you happen to make it to graduation, please choose a private college that way the tax payers will end up paying for nothing when you die before you finish. Have a great day everyone!

You're a redhead I said admiring the hair above her pussy. She was on top of me know completely naked and I finally had a glimpse of her beautiful trimmed pussy hair. I was still in my clothes, it was easier for her to get naked since she started taking off her clothes on the way home from the bar. Halfway down our block in San Francisco, she had nothing left but her panties, and I just watched her ass move in the shear material. Back in our apartment we wasted no time and she was soon naked and sitting on my lap on the couch. She leaned in to kiss me and smiled, "My hair turns blonde in the summer," she replied. My hands were cupped around her breasts at this point, as our lips met in a passionate kiss. She fumbled with my zipper, and grabbed the tops of my boxers, sliding them down over the head of my cock. Her fingers played with the pre-cum on the tip of my cock and slowly moved the fabric further down to expose my erection. I lifted my ass off of the couch an...

Just got back from a run... showered for the third time today. Its not the best picture, but I will get more creative as I go along. Happy HNT!

In that order... My job is changing, big changes, or maybe no change at all... it is all up in the air and it could be months until it is finalized... I will have a job, but I have no idea what I am going to be doing. I could be in the same position I am now or I may be moving on and traveling more, not sure which one will be better. My life is crazy, mainly because of the work changes, partly from the weekend and my wife sinking deeper into depression. She is better now but it seems she has to start working every other weekend, which is why she was depressed this past weekend.. working on a holiday weekend. So is this going to happen every week she has to work on Saturday and Sunday, I hope not, it was extremely emotionally draining for me as well as her. Other stuff, my daughter has been recommended for the smart class... if she passes the test she will be moved into the class next year. I am proud of her but worried that she may not be ready for the smart class, she is only in...

Our doctor told my wife that many of her health problems are due to her being overweight. Her weight problems are mostly from hypothyroidism and the medication she takes for depression. Of course it does not help a person that is dealing with insecurities to tell them they have a weight issue. So very gently I asked her if she wanted some help or support in losing some weight. I did not put it exactly that way but it was a longer conversation and that was the basic gist. She told me she was not ready yet, but we could start as the weather gets cooler. A delicate balance, I want her to feel better and be more secure. I could care less what she looks like, I think she is beautiful no matter what. But I also want her to be around for a long time, and if the doctor is correct, even though he should not be talking about it as much as he does then she probably could lose a few pounds. One of our dogs is overweight too, so a nice walk with the dogs and the family should do nicely. I...

Years ago, even after my daughter was born, we spent a good majority of our lives with friends. Dinner parties, camping, cook outs, cocktails, you name it we were involved. It was always the same, we would bring some sort of meat or meatless product and a side dish. It was the cheap and easy way to have a party and still have a great time. One of us would supply the space and the grill and cook the meat and we would all share sides. Most of us had common interests and the girls would get together and talk about their day and what the plans were for the weekend whether it was to go camping or to the lake... and the guys would sit around and talk about skiing, fishing, mountain biking or motorcycles. We were all around the same ages and all happy where we were in our lives. These were my best friends, and we always did everything together. We even tried to start a company together but when I moved away the interest diminished and it ultimately folded. Yes some of us went our separate...

The road from Park City to Jackson, Wyoming is a scenic highway especially when my wife decides to get naked for almost the last half hour, flashing all the truckers and RVs along the way. I was surprised that we did not get pulled over but there are not a lot of police along the mountain highways so we really did not have much to lose. At the time she was not my wife, although we had been together for almost five years. We actually had broken up because like all relationships we came to the transition period of where are we going and I did not have a great answer to the question. I was not finished playing, but I realized very quickly what my life would be like without her. It was only a short time after that trip when we decided to get married... and that is another funny story for another time. So we were invited on a little excursion to Jackson, my college roommate was a manager at a hotel there and was able to book us a room for $25 a night. Considering the destination thi...

I seem to have dodged several bullets this week... It started out a little crazy, with me having to serve my civic duty, but alas I was never chosen. So first bullet dodged... and of course things are heating up a little in the ocean. With me a stone's through from the shoreline I am a little anxious about this massive storm sitting off our coast. But as again it looks like we are not expecting anything more than some intense surf and bad rip currents... second bullet dodged. The last one was a completely minor one, but yesterday I saw the wonderful white shirt black tie bicycle riding LDS missionaries riding through my neighborhood. Being somewhat of an atheist and cooking dinner at the time I did not want to have to explain my viewpoints and be impolite to them. I know they are serving their greater good and that they all hope to make it into heaven for their service, but I really did not have time to talk and did not want to burn the dinner on my stove. So I watched as t...

A few more pounds lost and I will be to my fighting weight. This week has not been the best exercise wise for me and I did eat quite a bit over the weekend... but its good to have those every once in a while. Makes me work harder the next week. Maybe training for a half marathon but am worried that I will lose too much muscle mass training... Anyway Happy HNT everyone!

Well its been a few days since my last post and I am going through withdrawal... and no I have not burnt out yet, ha! Only been doing this for a few weeks so far and have lots to write about still. But this weekend one of the computers I was working on, cleaning viruses and such, shut down my network because it was sending out spam for penis enlargement pills... yippee! And then I had to fulfill my civic duty yesterday and quite possibly tomorrow as well, wont know until I call later in the day. So I will be trying to catch up on my comments and my posts in the next few hours while I have time. So dont lose faith in me yet, I have some great stories to tell.

One of my co-workers pissed me off today, as he has so many times in the past, we have even nicknamed him the disgruntled employee or DE for short. He took a task request from my group, something that we should not even be doing, and said that we would take care of it and then expected me to do it. He no longer works for my group, a group that I am in charge of. What really bothered me was that he was complaining that he did not have enough billable hours a few months back and wanted some from our group which I gave him, but since then he has not done even a quarter of what we offered. This particular request came to him directly so he should have been doing this work... He also promised them to have it after lunch, right when I take my workout break, so I had to move my schedule and he should have been the one doing the work. I dont mind doing the work, I do mind the fact that he complains about the hours, gets a job, then passes it off on me. Well after all, I guess he is t...